LET YOU GO

Have you ever wanted to forget how you feel for someone so bad it just doesn't go? Have you ever tried hard to forget that feeling for someone because you know they don't feel the same way for you, that it doesn't work? Well, that's how I'm feeling now.

I'm trying hard to let go of my feelings for someone so we just become friends. But it's not working for me. I know she just views me as a friend and I'm trying to do the same to let go of my feelings for her, but it's not working. Even when I try so hard to do everything to just bring a gap so she doesn't really notice it, it doesn't work.

The thing is, it's difficult. Cos whenever I try to forget about it, she just comes and then I go hay wire. Girls and their charms! Well, when we're texting I try to cut the conversation short, by using short replies and sometimes we just end at "that's good and yeah ". But when I actually see her and she starts to talk to me, that's where the problem lies.

Something's funny for me, hehe. While I'm trying hard to let go of my feelings, whenever I see her with some of her male friends, I get a little bit emotional. That's the problem. Trying hard to just let them go and yet feeling emotional when they're around other people. Well!

I just hope that one day my struggles won't be in vain. I thank God I won't be seeing her for a while in a few days to come. But for now, I have to endure it for a little longer then use the time I won't be seeing her to let her go.